sally

SALAM
Unlike Madonna’s latest hit,’time goes by so slow’, in reality check, time goes by really not slow, yet fast…
This coming monday, insyaAllah we will be in another fasting month, for me time passed by really fast.I felt like it was just yesterday i started working here and now i am about to be in another year of fasting in my current working place.
I am so excited to have another chance to be in another fasting month. This is the month that i truly wait when this is the month is the only month the door or barakah is opened extremely wide. I can pray and i can wish a lot from Allah and i know Allah will listen to my pray.Talking about pray, as i drove by a school at my sister’s house,i saw hundreds of parents and children were praying together in conjuntion of coming UPSR exam. It touched my heart so deeply that i had tears in my eyes, feeling how strong the power of solat jamaah is.
And in ramadhan, we will be together to perform tarawikh, one of the most anticipating ritual that bring all the muslimeen together to perform the solat. I cant wait for ramadhan to come and to perform the tarawikh prayer, so serene the feeling……..
To all my muslimeen friends, SALAM RAMADHAN, may this month barakah will surround us, ameen

I dream a lot, i do, since i was  a little kid, u ask my bro,and sis, they knew what i was like when i was still a kid, i loved dressing up, playing with my eldest sis makeup, pretending to be princess and showing off before mirror, ooh i love dreaming, till now i love dreaming….

When i dream about something, it is for real, and i will make-believe it everyday…for me nothing is a big NO before i try it first(well, now i realize about it, unlike before, i will be cold and melt with nervousness, duhhh!)

And today one of my dream came true, and it just went extremely smooth, like i never though i  would be so brave to sail through it…many things happend before i made it, yeah, n i nearly lost hope, but i kept telling myself, pantang mengalah sebelum titisan terakhir!!

Well, alhamduliillah i made it, i made my dream real, and i know i will keep making them real!!!

i feel somber now, im so burdened with many paper works!the QA thingy, got to to do it by my own, im so tired. sometime i need to have my frens around to tell them what i feel now, but there are not here,being bz…well i also wont be around for them when i am bz…im so worried for my QA presentation nxt week, i havent prepared anything, dr.naim was asking me once(but i know he wont ask anymore coz what he wishes to see is the end result)….
everytime when i firmly say to myself that i will do it tonight at home, i would easily cheat myself, i rather sleep early , in my prayer garment on my prayer mat, untill i wake up the next morning..then i will blame myself for wasting my night by sleeping early…im so tired then.hey, dont think i dont love my job, this is my passion, even wan razi noticed it too, he even remembered what i wrote in my book few years back during our student time…(hey just now i stopped blogging for a while to let my bos to see the x-ray, hmm at least her confirmation upon the film made me felt relieve, and my stress toned down a little….)
i need my frens around to hang out la, here, no kaki wayang for me, no kaki futsal for me, no kaki shopping for me, only kaki cukur, hehheh, my nephews and nieces….it has been a while i havent brought them to jalan2, no jalan2 at sunway for makan2, well, maybe i was being too tired of working…hopefully no more overloaded works for me(duhhh, it is not possible dear!)…
i plan to watch movie today(and alone again!!), but i just think maybe later la…….

its you, no its me actually, i am just having some crazy ideas, colorful story that i want to write in the blog,but later would i pen it down, not here but in my other blog…..

SALAM, blogging again via my room kat somban, heheheh, cuti seminggu ni beb!!best btol!!nak relax, nak buat all the things yg tak dapek nak buat selama ni sbb very the bz with works…

last week was a damn bz week for me, got oncall, and the bzest oncall ever!!nearly 24 hour che’ tak tido plus operation of fracture, very the stressful week, but the weird thing was, i like all those bz schedules, it made me going u know!!macam2 la yg jadi masa oncal 24 hour tuh, kisah sedih, ngeri and annoying macm2 la. teringat kat adik kat ICU tuh, i cried u know seeing that unfortunate boy, Ya Allah, selamatkan lah adik tu, lindungiah dia, make him happy again,ameeen……

n this week, until yesterday, i was so bz, damn bz..kena present QA thingy, dah la tak penah tau kebenda QA tuh, suddenly i was subcontiously ‘appointed’ as the team leader. pehtu kena plak present proposal kat depan timbalan pengarah kesihatan negeri.
there, i was the last group, n seeing other group presenting made my perut felt queasy, coz those ppl were presenting using the similar format that i dint use in my presentation.
it made me the stranger, alien in the presentation, huuaaa…nervous giler tahap naga..tapi kaknim, my nurse and kakmina my DSA, were very good tau, there were giving me full support, showing thumbs up to me , as a gesture of easing away my queasy feeling..then my turn to present had finally come, i was like so nervous(lagi nervous masa the group before me tengah q&a by the panels, i was like”cepatla panel ni, stop nagging lagi, im so tak sabar nak present ni, nak cepat habis ni”)..bila time che’ kena present, apa lagi, che’ pon naik sheikh la.
kakmina before tuh dok tanya”Dr nak cakap apa. omputih ka melayu ka”.che’ pon jawab, “kakmina, ikut apa yg terkeluaq kat mulut, kot terkeluaq omputih, omputih la, kot terkeluaq melayu,belasah je “…masa che’ naik kat pentas, apa lagi, u know me, i love microfon, thats my ‘icecream’, che’ pon present la,pong pang pong pang..yg che’ shukuq tuh, the panels were smiling pleasantly at me..n i know it was a safe smile, not a killer smile, in my heart, i praised God.we managed to answere all the questions, in nonchalant manner u know!n oh, the part where the format wrongly interpreted by our group managed to be explained to the panel(she was like ‘i ingat group from hospital faham tentang presentation ni tapi kenapa your group pula yg tak sama macam yg lain”, then i explained to her about everyting that she able to accept it, without qualms, heheheh, i like!!!

tapi paling i like tuh, bila kaknim bagitau kawannya kata”weh, bila Dr hang bukak mulut, aku terpegun tau, walaupun aku tak paham apa yg dia cakap, slang apa dia guna tuh”, hahahhah…pehtu kaknim balas”dia cakap slang london, aku pon memula tak paham, tapi lama2 paham dah”, hahhahah….
yang bestne lagi tuh, bila kawan kaknim kata “eh, Dr hang tuh muka macam cheryl samad la”, hahhaha ANOTHER comment i received saying i look like cheryl samad. sukeeeeeeeeeee, hehehheh…

tula ceritanye minggu ni, happy sesangat, those events and meeting up new people made me happy!!
n yeah, this saturday my cousin is getting married, and as u all know, i love wedding, i do, so,im so excited for Su’s wedding, mesti magical ni…..

hahaha..from the title, it might conjure something extraordinary, like, seeing a light at the end of tunnel, or having come to the end of pain…duhhh, it is more than that!!
i will call it a double jinx day, or rather in malay"sudah jatuh ditimpa  tangga"…hahha, well, this peribahasa surely hit me at face today!!

this morning, me and my anak sedara planned to balik kampung, at 8.00am was the original plan, but after subuh, i snoozed back, that i woke up by 8.45 after being waken up by Dwan. Donning up but then it was raining and plan postponed till rain stopped(yeah, i dare not travel when it was damn heavy rain, dangerous you know!)..

then, we dropped by at mall to buy some groceries to bring back home, and had some quick breakfast…and the 1st jinx happened just after we went out from the parking area, my car window stuck, could not fully close..but, hey its ok, rain had stopped already. Dwan was trying damn hard to close the automatic window, but i told him not to coz we were already at hiway by then…

the 2nd jinx took placed,hehheh, after we reached the big road, the window just banged down, and waalaa, we could not bring it up, meaning we couldnot close the window la!!!

ok we were optimist, rain wont pour again, yeah and i was damn sure we were gonna be  safe and dry once we reached home…

but the 3rd jinx just was not patient enough to say hello to us. Just after we reached the nilai area, rain started to pour slowly, and to add up more spice, we were stuck in a stupid jam(why i said it was a stupid jam?coz the jam was due to stupid people who slowed their car just to watch an accident, or rather pushed aside rummaged car, duhhh, i was just had to be sabar je la that time)…

and u guys can guess la, rain started to be heavier, my window was stuck, i was partly wet, and it was at the middle of the hiway road, and i dare not to look at my side, humiliated by the fact, it was damn heavy rain, but i just nonchalantly let my window open..how embarrass i was, coz normally i would be very ‘brave’ to look my sideway, to check out gorgeous car, or the driver may be, hhahah…

we were like, hokay, be cool guy, be cool, act as nothing happened, though my right sleeve was kinda hit by water, i must say(wet by rain la!!)…(at that point i still got time to berangan to buy a new car, my dream Wolswagen car, arghhhh…when la i got to fly ni?)….we were praying so hard, please God let us my home safe and, errr, DRY….thank God, finally, we reached that junction to our dearie home!!!

and Dwan was making that grand announcement to people at home”finally!!!we are home!!!”, hahhaah…well, what can i say, we finally reached home, very dry, hahhaha…oh ya, the moral value of the story:- dont drive in old car, will ‘cha?buy new one instead, throw the old one kat tempat buang sampah, huhuhuh….

p/s:dear reader(if got, hheheh),please mind the oh not so nice choose of words, it is just to add up spice only , heehhe….but,yg benonye, bila teman bawak keta, teman mmg ganeh, eheheh, tapi maintain ayu, duhhh

salam…blogging again, via my workplace, doing my notes after seeing patient, got no time to write note other than sitting alone here , completing the works…

talking about works, just now i went to see a boy, same age as my nephew, at ICU, well, it broke my heart to see him like that, from a simple viral infection that might regress on normal child, he developed septicemia with multiple organ failure…i was just a doctor, who oblilgingly serve my patient, but while im cleaning his wound, i did ponder, what if i was in his mother’s place?what my feeling would be ?
surely it is easy to say than do, attending this boy, i put away my sad feeling, coz i just want to treat him, but if i am to face this with my own child, i wont think i would be strong enough to face it…
it broke my heart to see kids suffering from disease, but today this morning,i did feel so happy to see m y patient with the same viral infection, came with healed wound, so happy to see him shook my hand and kissed my hand, i said to myself, would it be nice to have my own child?

while walking to ICU with my nurse, i said to her”even though i dont have child, but my nieces and nephews are my children, i cannot help to think if i were to face the same situation”…
i am so blessed to be working in hospital, attending patients, this is not a glamorous job, it is a tedious, gruelling works for those who are in the same shoes as mine…but i do love my work, i pray one day,, when i am able to be a specialist, i would be able to do many many good deeds to my patients.

Salam , its me sally, as nik yan puts it,but only her can call me that ya, she is one of my best fren ever!y, ur baby is so very the cute one!!i hope i cld fly there to see u guys!!

well, again im blogging via my work place on sunday noon with alya n lisa here as well, we r going to have lunch together gether while im having oncall today….

ada apa dengan victory ya?im in the prince of victory town now, n that is not the thing i would love to pen here…

i just wanna convey my gratitude to all teh people that i know who prayed for my exam, i am so thankful to Allah for bleesing me and for bestowing me teh victory in this exam, without pray from mak abah, my fens, my staff and patients, and those who know me, i wont have what i have now……

life must go on, fresn were asking me, what woulld be my next plan?i would just sigh and say, let me take a breath for a while, and settle my own predicament before i move on……

actually, may many things i would love to do, but one thing than another, first thing first, then we will see how far i could go…but now, i would love to be my old me, my old fun me,the fairy tale me…..

Ahhhh(said in a touched tone), someboy had wished me 3 days ealier,
well, already 27, so not young, i bet, barely lots of people remember my birthday, so to conceal the future frustration should none remember about the day, i have announced it one week already, ya thats the strategy to get the wishes come on time, and ya, i am very sure, on that day somebody is gonna announce it at my workplace, and ya ppl will notice im uno year older, yeah…..

yesterday went to my cousin’s place, got a kenduri and i met my niece who was just loved to so-call psychoed me la, duhhh!!i tell you, despite me being psychoed, i “washed” his brain, how about that, hahaha…hai aboy, nak psycho kakyang konon, hahhah, see my kaki la before trying to pry my story, hahhah…he said he got that so-called photo ready, hahhah, but dare not to show me, yadayadyada…

hai, another session to merapu, who cares ya, its my blog, though yon said i was being a so-called hmm what was tht word, cant remember, but ok la tuh, its me, im like that , hahha, full with colors…ok la tuh (said in saida’s style)…ok la, im actually pretty nervous, coz in 2 weeks time my result will be announced, pray hard, hoping for miracle, ameeen

SALAM,
its me again, blogging via ermm, my work place, during break hour k!
oh ya,im back to work, cuti is over as my big exam finished last monday, hmm, phewww, still got butterfly in my tommy for this whole month as my result will be out in 30 days or less…well,cuti, been thru, exam been thru, hmm, yaa, my bos gave me a new task, on 23/4, so books, cant kep it in my store, still gotta read it, gotta do a talk n ya on my birthday, ohh ya, this 234, im 27, hmmm, so not young..heheh, oh ya, birthday is around the corner, hopefully i got some sweet surprise, ya ya aya, ive already announced the auto news about my birthday, so surprise is minor la….heheheh, anyway, i love surprise,should it be a known surprise or planned surprise or real surprise, anything can, heheh..well. sounds so happy aye?
after burthday, i got PBM to do, ya, a PBM, courage is needed…so, hmm, stop now, im going back to hometown, miss y emak already, yayayay, call me manja, coz its me, hehheeh
..daaaa.