sally

This poem i dedicate to my dearest friend who always lends her ears for me, and now it is my turn to lend her mine……

Right here, she stands……

Beaming the sunlight shadows to the grieving girl,

For she afraid of her own shadows,

She thought everything has ended,

Yet, she does not know,

The journey of her life has just begun,

Yet she afraid, she afraid she might lose,

This girl wishes and hopes,

This girl crawls and runs,

Gasping for air of life,

For she thought she loses hope,

Thinking where the journey would end,

She just wonders,

Feeling alone, feeling insecure,

Be here, be with her,

Strength, for that is what she wishes most,

Love, she still searches the entire universe,

Heart, let not hurt her anymore,

Tears, pour like rain, till rainbows shine,

Smile, like candy sweet,

Swipe away the bitterness,

Wait and let the ray of joy comes,

Walk to it,

Run to it,

Let go the sorrow,

Say hello to tomorrow,

Yes, tomorrow is her happy day……

She deserves to smile……

Copyright- salmi

Ada kawan saya di
friendster dok tanya, “seronok tak jadi dentist?”…apa agaknya jawapan yang
tidak cliche ya untuk dijawab?..ok, seronok atau tidak pekerjaan itu bergantung
pada persepsi kita sendiri. Bagi saya bukan pekejaan itu yang mesti menyeronokkan, tapi bagaimana kita nak
buat pekerjaan itu menyeronokkan…setakat ini, alhamdulillah, saya seronok
bekerja..sebab saya ni orangnya suka bekerja, saya tak betah duduk saja tanpa
buat kerja….

Ok berbalik pada seronok tak jadi dentist ni…its fun sebab saya
orang yang suka berjumpa dengan ramai orang, bak kata orang, saya ni peramah
orangnya, jadi sesuai la jadi doktor ni…saya tak suka kerja yang kena
mengadap komputer macam orang yang kerja di pejabat, bosan…saya suka kerja
yang dinamik, yang membolehkan saya berjumpa dengan ramai orang dan pada masa
yang sama merawat orang…pada orang biasa mereka ingat dentist ni kerjanya
senang..tapi saya nak betulkan anggapan itu..dentist adalah antara doktor yang
paling ramai orang takut, sebab pengalaman berada di kerusi dental adalah macam
pengalaman nak masuk dewan bedah…sebab itulah, dentist ini dipanggil dental
surgeon….tak perlulah saya
menjelaskan apakah rutin harian kami, namun tugas sebagai dentist amat menjerihkan,
setiap pesakit adalah berbeza modus rawatannya, tidak sama…jadi semasa kami
di universiti kami selalu diingatkan untuk sentiasa merawat pesakit dengan
lemah lembut sebab ramai orang takut berjumpa dentist…pesepsi ini sangat
menyedihkan kerana, amalan membuat “dental checkup” yang rutin boleh menyekat
penyakit mulut daripada berlanjutan…pada yang masih ada gigi, mungkin tak
berasa apa-apa apabila mendengar keluhan mereka yang sukar nak makan apabila
gigi sudah tiada, tetapi bagi saya, anugerah Tuhan iaitu gigi yang sihat dan
kekal amatlah bernilai, saya rasa bersyukur kerana masih boleh menikmati
makanan dengan enak, mempunyai senyuman yang bolehla dikatakan menarik(bukan
apa ia memberi imej yang sihat pada pesakit, bila dentist giginya sihat, maka
pesakit pun yakin pada rawatan dentist kan?)…bagi saya apabila seseorang itu
kehilangan giginya, barulah mereka sedar akan nikmat Tuhan yang satu ini…ok
berbalik pada seronok atau tidak menjadi dentist ini, ya, saya suka menjadi
dentsit, sebab saya dapat memberi impak yang besar kepada pesakit saya…terasa
sungguh seronok apabila pesakit tersenyum girang apabila keluar daripada
klinik, rasa macam satu kemenangan sebab saya berjaya membuatkan mereka tak
takut berjumpa dentist…menukar persepsi mereka dari takut berjumpa dengan
dentist kepada suatu kemestian mesti datang ke klinik gigi adalah satu perkara
yang sukar kerana persepsi ini sudah tertanam sejak dulu lagi, jadi apabila
dapat membuat pesakit saya suka datang ke klinik gigi, ia satu perkara yang
bagus buat saya….

Tetapi, bohong
kalau saya katakan yang saya tidak pernah tensi bekerja. Itu satu perkara yang
lumrah apabila bekerja. Ada masa kita tensi dengan pesakit yang terlalu
‘demand’, tensi dengan rawatan tak menjadi seperti yang dirancang, tensi dengan
kerja pengurusan klinik yang menjemukan, tensi kena marah dengan pakar…tapi
itu semua kena lah dilalui juga, sebab itu adalah asam garam bekerja…nasib
saya baik kerana ada rakan-rakan yang sudi mendengar keluhan saya dan juga saya
ni jenis yang periang yang tak suka simpan masalah lama-lama..jadi campur tolak
bahagi kali, its fun to work…..yang penting niat kita tu kerana Allah,
insyaAllah, semuanya dimudahkanNya….

I love to buy old and rugged book that cost me less than RM 10, kinda nice to have books that are cheap, got nice story and crumpled too..the best value i got was when i saw this jeffry archer book that cost me RM3…i saw the crumpled cover with periodic saga synopsis, without thinking twice, i just bought it..i also bought book by the same author, on my very first day as uni student 7 years ago..the prodigal daughter, was the book i bought..ever since then, that was the book that i seriously read when i feel bored, sad or nervous to face exam…hmmm, reading old and crumpled book is more like hunting for treasure hunt, the old and crumpled it is, the more mysterious it can be…so happy reading, n ya dont judge a book by its cover then ya!!!

“Hey u look like Cheryl Samad la,” or “ U sounded like Cheryl Samad la”….well since last year I received this genuine comment from people that met me for the first time..hmmm,  I like la when people related me to a celebrity like Cheryl Samad..heheheh, hmmm, perasan!!…I asked my brother did I look like Cheryl Samad, hmm the answer was as I expected, negative…I did not look like her..hmm, but if u can hear me talk, ya I did sound like her..why? because I speak fast like a bullet train, and I love to give a big flashy smile…hmmmm, that made me looked like her maybe..but the most interesting comment I got when people saw me for the first time was - I looked like a celebrity, hahahah..that was from my patient! At first I took it for granted, but when I went to a “rumah terbuka” at my workplace, then I realized whom I was thought to look alike, the moment I came in, the people there said I looked like Cheryl Samad, hahahah….and when I went to a wedding recently, one guy also made the same remark -  I looked like Cheryl Samad! (leaving me myself wondered which part of my face looked similar to Cheryl Samad?)…but I think people said so because I talk like Cheryl Samad la, heheh..what an interesting comment!!!

Pernah tak kita tengok orang yang susah kita rasa sebak sampai nak nangis? Well, I do..there was one moment where I nearly cried and  had to fight back my tears…I saw a patient that came for a treatment at my clinic….this man was very unfortunate, and born with facial defect….but he survived and lived in modesty.. God is great, looking at this man, I realized how ungrateful I was..long before, I used to wish to have fairer skin, beautiful face, tall, and perfect body, never had I thought whatever God has bestowed upon me is the best ever..but now, looking back to every unfortunate people that I met, I know, God is fair, and we must be grateful for every single thing that God has given to us, bersyukurlah dan terima lah apa yang kita ada seadanya, and also accept other people as what they are, coz by doing so, it makes everybody  happy kan…

“Bangah sempat tak agaknya sampai airport?” said I.”Sempat”, Bangah replied, made me felt a sudden relieve as my heart was beating so fast, afraid of losing my flight to KB. I was late that morning to reach airport. My flight was scheduled on 0720, but we drove out from house by 0615, that made Bangah speeding up..

I prayed so hard to make it to airport…thank God, I made it(I asked Bangah to wait for me till I safely boarded, worried I might loss my flight)…as a result of being late, I nearly went to a wrong gate to KB, thank God the officer in charge realized my gate was the other one, if not, I did not know which destination I might end up…

In the plane, as I looked down through the window, seeing the greenly earth, while praising The Almighty God, I realized one verse in Qur’an about time, "with time man is in loss"(demi masa manusia kerugian)…such a strong sentence that makes such a big impact in human life..while I was in plane, I reminded myself, this was one of the lesson that I learned for not appreciating time…I was at the nick of time, and that nearly made me lost my flight, nearly made me lost my money should I need to take another flight, nearly made my brother wasting his time for driving me to airport, nearly made us losing our life for speeding up to be in the nick of time…but thank God, He listened to my pray to be in time…alhamdulillah….I made it, even though at the nick of time….