wish 4 hope

March 10th, 2008 by kyssmy

a wish from heaven maybe..

the hope that i build years ago

now it is time to let him know

i feel scared you know but i guess, it is alright for me to try

though i guess later i might cry

its okay…

i have my sisters to rely

no matter what happens next

i know i have prepared

what i hope is only for him to care

wow, if only he wishes me to be there!

now it is time for me to decide

to tell him not or tell him yet

please indicate to me if i do have something to hold on

’cause i guess i need to move on

but i do believe,what best for me, only heaven knows.

MISS

January 31st, 2008 by kyssmy

SALAM, im blogging again, now via my own laptop, at my house, in my bro’s room…….

la ni tgh teringat kat my girl frens, mizzz them so much!!!

che’ malas nak tulis in proper English, sbb che’ tgh a bit crazy, fening, tensi….exam is arnd the corner, and many many works tgh menunggu………

oh ya, teringat janji kat yon, anak kak lang, i promised her, to write something yg ada kena dgn dia kat blog ni……….

oh ya, hari tuh, masa sarah kawen, yon ni jadi org pangkal la  kononnya,she was damn bz…..got no time to chit chat with me(i reminded her previously, musti borak dgn kakyang, but she was damn bz, she just ingnored the reminder, duhh, :P)…..
tapi yg che’ ingat la masa kenduri tuh, ada sorang anak buah che’ nih, asyik pandang2 kat che’, hahhaah…this boy nih tak tau apa mimpinye, came to me and gave me a rose and asked his sis to take the picture of him giving me the flower…gee, yonn, if you have that picture, plz gimme eh, nak tgk camno ghupenye saat romantik tuh, hahahha…tapi yg tak laratnya, dia siap tanya lagi masa che buat grand entrance(so called) kat dewan sarah kawen "kakyang, nape tak pakai bunga kat kapla?"…hey, did he think i was free hair ka time tuh, duhhh,:P……..yonn, that rose till last week  was still  in my car, until last week je la, sbb kakyang tak tahan asyik bersin je dek bunga yg dah kering berserbuk tuh…so gotta throw it away, ahhh, u know the very first rose from a guy, or better name, a boy,hhehehheh….

cakap pasal wedding ni, this yr will be a wedding in my family, hai, tak sabarnye tunggu……..i love wedding, love attending wedding..its so my thingy…….u just ask my frens, they know i love attending wedding…sbb wedding is a very lovely thing to attend…and yeah, the wedding, expected in august ni will be the best ever, sbb bangri and kakyung will be the wedding planner, and i , will be one of the important person as well, syoknya, dapat give my hand in it, i will make the best of it, yaaa, what a poyo of me ya…never mind this is my blog, so sukela nak poyo pon, hehhehe…..
ok daaaaaaaa, rasanya dah tak miss lagi writing in my so called blog, rindu melalut kat blog ni, heheheh………..
until nxt blog, daaaaaaaaa

Ponder

January 12th, 2008 by kyssmy

It has been a while I have not written in this so called blog, part of it due to being a bz one, part of it was due to ‘dryness’ of idea.

Well, my hand is itchy, begging its ‘master’ to press the keyboard and to pour out my ideas…

I have just finished cooking lunch, it has been a while I have not been into kitchen, well, i got  to retype: IT IS DUE TO MY BZNESS, DUHHH…
Kinda worried if I loss my cooking skill(once I cooked gulai lemak cili padi, but it did not taste as emak’s cooking, felt disappointed u know!)…

With the new Hijrah year arrived, I felt so blessed to have breathed in another year, felt blessed to have good  a career(it is a good opportunity to learn how to appreciate life, taught me to be grateful)…..
to be continued……..

revised 01/02/08

well, I never like to announce(so called) what I do normally as a worker at my place..part of it is due to the ethic that I sacredly embrace and dare not to breach, and part of it is due to not intend to be an "’ujub"..said someone to me, my work is a work that our Prophet said one of the best for ladies…I totally agree, and this work does suit me so much….now I realize, with this work I need not to be worried whether the rezki that I obtained is "shubhah" or not…with this work I really know how to appreciate life…life is short, we never know what will happen the next second…my work is hard, is tough, is challenging, but having the "niat" because of Allah and because I need to help people, and the reality that I love the discipline so much, I still can stand still (though sometime I do feel shaken…), I still can swim over the harsh tide that bash towards me, so in this new Hijrah year, I wish I can be a better person, better worker, better in everything……….

yeah, being better is the core of Hijrah,I wish to have better days ahead, could I?……

LIFE IS AN OPEN SECRET –I FOUND IT!

December 20th, 2007 by kyssmy

That day,
during my year end break, I went to a hypermarket at my hometown to do some
groceries shopping, then like an intuition, my heart was just saying “it is not bad at all if I just dropped by a
moment to MPH”…a quick intention had made me found a book that I always wanted to have. Well, I am pretty choosy when it comes to
buying book, I wont buy any book without having strong recommendation from my friends or if I do not have what we
call instinct towards the books.

 

So I went
to the bookstore with Nisak, well, I always love going to bookstore, especially
MPH. The feeling of going to bookstore, to me , is like going to a candy shop,
where your eyes are wild with all the colorful candies that you are unable to
choose anything when there are so many
choices for you to make(a feeling that I  shared with Kak Mar and Naz, surprisingly!).
You feel so dizzy with choices that you feel like you wish to have all the
candies, or books in my case. I love doing what I call book-window-shopping.
There, I will look through all the potential books that I think would be lovely
to have, then I would fantasize how nice if I could have the books. I would
make a mental note, next time, when I have enough money, I would go again and
proudly buy that book, hehheeh, such a girly of me right?

 

Talking about
MPH, I was first introduced to it by my brother, Bangri, that time I was 12,
and I bought my first MPH-stamped book, at Alpha Angle if I was not mistaken.
So, MPH is where I bought most of my precious books (well, other than that so
expensive bookstore, Kamal where I bought all my books during University time,
duhhh!).

 

Now talking
about that book, which I said I found at MPH, at my hometown, at an intuition,
remember? The book is “Life Is an Open Secret”. Do you know how I found it?
Well, I just browsed at the bookshelf, and then a white-green thin book caught
my eyes. Well, normally it was hard for me to have ‘love at the first sight’ to
a book, but that day, I just did not know why, I felt a sudden fascination to
it, that I opened the book, enthusiastically, and there, I felt, I must buy
that book, there and then. The book was wittily written, so casual, very light
to read, yet rich with hadith and verse from Holy Quran, plus it was not
expensive. I must be a heartless one, should I not but it. Told myself, I must
buy this book. However, I needed to have an approval, should this book is sound
to read, as the book contained the verses from Holy Quran and hadith.
Well, nowadays, you have to be careful on what you read righ? So that moment, I
just called Hajar, my friend who also loved reading, she was like a walking
library I rather called her for approval, heheheh. She said, she knew about the
book, and yes it was a must-have book. So everything checked, I flashed my MPH
card, and yeah cash (I do not have credit card, never would unless I have 5
digit wage) and the book was officially mine.

 

The book is
so great. The moment I read the first chapter about mother, I cried
shamelessly, well alone, in my room, could not let anyone saw me crying right?
The book is so deliciously written, that I read it slowly, enjoying every page,
likewise I enjoy a bar of Cadbury chocolate, or scoops of Vanilla ice-cream, or
hmm, cheese-cake at Secret Recipe, heheh, because the book, you need to slowly
read it to have the juice of wisdom words ‘seeped in’ so you could ‘taste’ it,
so that you could have it reached to your soul. I could feel it, even though I
have not completed reading it.

 

This book
is so motivating, for everyone who wishes for soul-searching, well I do, I
am. Life is indeed an open secret!!

 

So I do
promote this book to people that I know, people that I care, and people who
love books, and who enjoy reading as much as I do. Coz this book is a must-have
book, fully recommended!!

Well, gotta
go back reading, with a glass of sky juice, evening breeze and a nice cozy
pillow………..

GIMME A BREAK WILL ‘CHA

December 10th, 2007 by kyssmy

Uno day went by, as i started my so called long, year end break, hmmm, kinda nice to be at home, having my own room, dining Emak’s best gulai on earth, tongue-wrestle(hmmm, bertikam lidah)with my Nisak and Emak over how to make the house(im known as a very fussy one about home tidiness, cant stand messy house la)…

just now I threw away all my oh-not-so-good-condition shoes(oh, i might  be the protege of Emelda Marcos if that position is available, coz i have plenty of shoes, a shoe maniac i am, thank god  i am still able to control my desire to buy new shoe this month)…

actually my holiday started  yesterday, and it started as a very hilarious one. I was intrigued by a new bike my nieces have,  so called bicycle like-bike, oh whatever…so feeling so wanting to have ridden on it, i tried on it but to end up banged to my sis’ house door, such a tragic one, thank god nothing happened to me or to the bike. such a hilarious one when my sis’ and nieces were shouting"break, break", and what i tried to do was trying to push a pedal where there was no pedal, i wrongly translated their panic instruction, tht i ended up to press the handle even harder and then there the so called tragedy occured..everyone was laughing nervously at me,yeah, thank god i was not injured!!!but that incident did not deter my will to even try to ride on it again, and i managed to do so, hhehehh(reminisced back the time  i took my driving licence 2 years ago, i had to take thrice, duhhh)….

and today, i started my day by having house-cleaning, whaddda!!i have Nisak and Alya to help to clean my parents’s house..it was tiring to sweep, mopp, and so on so forth, but for me it was a therapy.i feel happy to see tidy house, shiny floor and fresh smell garder, not to forget clean toilet eh….it is so therapeutic, you could transmit all negative energies when you do the house chores(oh ya, ring me if you need a housekeepe eh, hahahah)…

so that was how my uno day in this year end break spent on…hopefully the ultimate plan that i planned to do during this break could be implemented, with God’s will, Ameeen

story

November 27th, 2007 by kyssmy

SALAM…
blogging again, oohhh, forgot abt the last the triumph post tuh! never mind, later at home, during my break, I will continue that movie story mory eh…hokey, as everyone knows, I am very the darn bz here, and im not sure wheather I could manage to get my year end break, (macam year end sale plak kan?)…just now I had to do a very boring chore, and yeah, I nearly felt asleep during the talk, but as usuall, I managed to control macho, hai haia hai….

I really want to have cuti-cuti malaysia, this is not abt going to travel around malaysia lah, it is just about having a day break, cozying and lazying myself at home, at my parents’ home, chit chatting with Emak, having my leisure time with my buddies, oh ya give my hand to Saodah’s wedding, having time out with them and yeah, having Echu to listen to my grievances, she is a very good listener, having a youngest sister like her is really nice, miss her so much!! she has finished her mega exam, so she will be here at home, and she is planning to do gardening or “berkebun” thinngy at kampong(yeah, Nisak is good with “berkebun”, she has this magical touch la, but not touch of ” berkemas’ , she is so malas, only me who is the very ‘”rajin” one when it comes to ” mengemas” that my Emak would have her voice “up” everytime I ” mengemas” all her things, yeah coz I hate to see mess, so if I got chance to remove the mess, it is so good,hehhe, and then I must face Emak’s nag, wow scarry u know?)

well, hopefully i got my cuti, so i can lepak at my house, and yeah to rejuvenate myself coz sometimes we need a break from our daily routine kan? SO UNTILL, NEXT BLOG, DAA..
p/s:yon, said u love reading my blog, ehmm, later i post a blog specially for u eh…

BZ AND SKINNY

November 15th, 2007 by kyssmy

Oh ya, the last post , The Triumph, hmmph to be continued, now i just wanna story mory about my life since the last 6 months here in , well u know where…

I went to Wani’s house last week, raya , makan2,hmmph, her husband took his pleasure to tease me for looking thinner(or i think rather slimmer la) than the last time they met me(kat jempol, :))…they enjoyed teasing me, saying I was darn being bz trained to become speacialist that I turned to be hmm, skinnier…duhhh..

I asked my nieces, did i look skinnier?well, they said, no la, i looked the same, slim and slender(wow, i like!)..but well, it is so darn bz here, i dont know la, everywhere i work, the place will then turn to be bzier than normal, Wani said, I am ” rich” with patients, hmmph,im confused, duhh…

Lately, gone my hobby of shopping spree, i am darn bz la…i miss shoppping, shopping makes me happy la!!!
but even though being bz, i dont care, last Wednesday I went to buy a gift for me, splurged my money into hmm, perfume, yeah, it did make me happy! I love perfumes!!!so i happy u know, well to those ppl out here, here is my advise, go shopping when u are in misery(heheheh)…it does make u happy, well it works for me though!!!

THE TRIUMPH

November 13th, 2007 by kyssmy

Salam, salmi here, blogging agian, yeah, with ideas flooding out from my mind, could not stop it other than write it in my blog…
The Triumph(not The Trump eh mind me), was the drama i watched at hallmark channel…
this was another drama that never failed to make me cried(without my anak sedara noticing it)….it was a very inspiring movie about a teacher who believed to his pupils’ potential(errr, very extra nakal but talented kids)..ehhhm, nanti la i continue writing eh, got oncall plak ni, hmphhh

Revised:14/12/07

oh ya as i wrote earlier, i wished to continue writing about the drama i watched at Hallmark Channel few weeks ago(my favourite channels at astro, are namely-Hallmark, Asian FOOD channel, travel and living, oh not to forget, E!-love gossips, see how unacademically person i am, Abah used to admonish me for having non educational interest, he said i should watch more news, see more things in national geographic or in discovery channel…well, i do watch, but need not to mention here la, people will think im a nerdy should i write here, "ooh, my favourite channel is those in national geography, discovery"…nah, better keep some details about me unrevealed so i would be more mysterious and should i say, rare and irresistable, hehehe….)

oh, see here i am, being "merepek" again, i wrote earlier, i wanted to write about The Thriumph right?…

ok, this drama really sent me a goosebump. not because this was a scarry movie..it was not ya…it was about a very inspiring, dedicated teacher who had a very stern will to show the people at this so-called black area how he could bring the kids in that so-called no hope class to walk out as one of the top class in the district or even state!

well, i did not wish to write the long story of this drama, what i intended to write here was about the spirit of this teacher(this is a true story ya)…i was so touched to see the teacher’s effort  to encourage the students to love learning… as he believed in those students, he made the so-called no hopes students to believe in themselves,finally…

watching this drama made my opinon that teachers and students should "dance the tango together" even stonger. i believe in order to make the students to be excellant in their study, not only the students have to work hard, but the teachers also have to put the same effort and energy to "dance the same beat" with the students so together they can achieve the same goal, which is victory….

well, i used to be a student before and had marvellous teachers as well.i remembered when i was in form 4, i did so-so in my add math and chemistry(well, those were the killer subjects undeniably)…i thought i had studied enough to score, but the result that i got was frustrating(coz my teachers that time did not inspire me enough) until when i was in form 5,i met these marvellous teachers, Cikgu Muknisah,who made me to love chemistry even more and she made chemistry as ez as "kacang", that i could answer with "eyes closed",eheheh… and not to forger Mr.Yau who made me loved add math and scored A in my SPM…THIS IS MY TRIBUTE TO MY SCHOOL TEACHERS WHO MADE ME WHO I AM NOW!!! not to forget also to Dr.Haizal who made OMOP the very ez subject to understant and also to my idols Mr.Kelvin,Prof Rosza and Prof Roslan who made me love OS even more!!!

well, what can i say, teachers and students are like "irama dan lagu", unseparable, they dance the tango together and they follow the same beat to achieve the same goal….TRIBUTE TO ALL THE EXCELLANT TEACHERS!!!

Time

November 3rd, 2007 by kyssmy

I have less than 1 year to go…
What I have to go through now is like a battle that I must succeed, I have put all  my energy, afford, time, money, to make it happened…I am a person with strong will, my spirit will not easily deter with any challenge that stands before me….

I have my faith to Allah, I have my parents who pray for me(may Allah bless them,my supreme love for them) insyaAllah, the challenge, the hardship that I must go through will be paid with a good price! there is no shortcut to success,I must say, so bear with it, I must do!!

MALAM

October 5th, 2007 by kyssmy

Selama ini, aku tak pernah mencari malam itu dengan bersunguh-sungguh, kerana aku tak yakin aku akan terpilih sebagai pemenang dalam pencarian itu….aku memang ingin selalu menang dalam apa jua pertandingan, ramai yang tahu sifat bersungguh-sungguhku itu, tapi demi satu malam itu, aku tidak pula yakin aku akan menang , kerana aku rasakan diri ini kerdil dan hina di sisiNya…tapi semenjak kebelakangan ini, hati ini meronta-ronta untuk bertemu malam itu, untuk berjumpa malam itu, kerana banyak yang ingin aku adu dan katakan pada Yang Satu, mungkinkah dapat aku bertemu malam itu? Tuhanku yang Esa, sesungguhnya aku tak layak syurgaMu tapi aku takut akan nerakaMu, sesungguhnya aku teringin melihat malam itu dan berada di samping tetamuMu yang lain, kerana aku tak mahu kalah dalam pencarian malam itu, aku ingin merasakan barakahMu biar pun sedetik cuma………….